How I Found God in True Love.

I largely stay away from religion in what I share publicly, as I feel like religion is something very personal to each of us, and do not like the idea of pushing m own ideas on anyone else. But I've been thinking recently about love. And in trying to understand love, many ideas that were half-formed, floating around in my mind, crystallized into a coherent whole, and suddenly I find that I have an idea of what I believe is the nature of the world, God, and Love. These are not ideas that I will swear to be truth; there was no angel on high providing them in a revelation, no voice of God whispering in my ear. The ideas here are something that built in my mind, and when they arose, they had a resonance in me that rang true. So I share some of the ideas here, not to preach or demand they be accepted, but simply as something to think about.

God is a pattern, a system, a force, an intelligent guiding principle that exerts its influence over everything at a quantum level, where it can do so without disturbing the surface laws of physics. Essential to this idea is that the material world is not all there is. There is an existence outside the material world, in which the Godhead has its being, which contains nothing but the immaterial mass of the Godhead. All life is fueled from that mass. It is what provides the spark that creates life from mere minerals. Simple exposure to it can provide life at the cellular level, but sentience requires more. Sentience requires a soul, for which a small mass is pulled from the whole, like a cup of water taken from the ocean, pulled with the origination of each new sentient life. Through this process, the Godhead gains the only thing that it lacks: perspective. The perspective of seeing the world, of every situation from millions of different perspectives, millions of different lives, biases, idiosyncrasies and minds. And when a soul returns, it rejoins that mass, like rainwater returning to the ocean. That mass of soulhood is the greatest feeling of connection, of returning to the whole, of something a million times greater than the individual, and yet, though it is heaven, it is also completely static and incapable of development without sending its parts, or children into the material world to live. In the world, most entering immediately suffer pain upon entering, and continuously find hurt thereafter, feelings unknown in the Godhead, and so they seek to insulate themselves from the pain that the world offers, and yet by doing so, they are also insulating and distancing themselves from the souls around them, and by so doing, protecting themselves from love and deeper happiness as much as they are protected from pain. Though they are not born with the knowledge, some discover later that they can find a happiness that reaches the soul level by finding ways to peel back the insulation they have built, to allow other souls to press close, creating a symbiotic synchronicity of souls, a miniature event of the return to heaven, except occurring in a world in which it can be felt far more deeply. This is Love. Love can be strengthened or weakened by the interaction between the two persons; if distrust or hurt occurs between them, they will build more insulation between them, thus reducing its strength. The growth together can build over time, so that if they can keep its purity (absence of hurt, fear distrust that will push one or both to pull back), the synchronicity will increase over time. Families often have love in the way that the bond is formed when the child has not yet built a significant shell, yet the intensity of such relationships is often marred by the hurts and disagreements that occur over time, largely from the great difference in the material age and understanding of the parent and child. Yet sometimes there is something more. The mass of the Godhead started as something homogeneous. Yet once it began to separate itself into parts that lived different experiences and lives, a heterogeneity developed. And so some souls that entered the world developed further than others, and some few of those built and understanding and identity of their soul, as something more than their body, to the degree that when they returned to the Godhead, they still retained a sense of self, and thus held together within the mass, like a chunk of ice in an ocean, until returned to the world, and returned whole, instead of mixed in with the rest of the Godhead like the rest, so that its depth and understanding of itself could become even further defined, and even more likely to retain itself the next time. But sometimes such a one would be split when returned to the world, and in living, would heal to become a full and individual soul. But sometimes such a soul can find a person bearing the other half of their essence, and when love occurs between these, it is something greater, something new, because the love of all others is something originating from the Godhead itself, but this love is something that did not exist before, could only exist in the symbiosis of the Godhead and the physical world, something greater than was possible before. When it returns to the godhead, it brings both an individuality, and an ecstasy that were previously unknown. It changes the very nature of the Godhead, so that the Godhead’s creation is now re-creating the Godhead. Is this phenomena something that can continue and spread, or is it limited to just some small parts of the Godhead? If it can spread to the entirety, then the Godhead will be transformed into something new, something more. Somehow it will become something more than the everything that it was before.